Setelah beberapa bulan ini...

Assalammu'alaikum...erhmmm...dh lama rasanya aku x menulis pe2 entry dlm bpe2 bln ni a, kali terakhir aku menulis x silap aku dlm bln March (21hb) yg lps...tp sbnr2nye utk blog kali ni sbnrnye dh hampir bpe2 kali aku bertukar akaun email bg aku sentiasa aktif dlm kalangan kaki2 blogger ni, tp apakah daya, de saja makhluk2 yg busuk hati yg ingin menghentam serta menghancurkn karier yg telah aku bina hampir dlm 10 tahun ni...so, nk @ x, aku terpaksa buat blog mcmni (yg ntah pe2 ntah...sbb dh  x de idea aku nk tulis pe...uhuhuhu...)....erhmmm...ntah r, mcm2 cabaran, dugaan n paling aku x dpt lupakan dlm bpe2 bln kebelakangan ni seperti aku hampir kehilangan segala2nya yg aku telah miliki sekian lama ni, iaitu org2 yg aku amat2 dicintai n dikasihi, siapa lagi kalau bkn family n my luv lavender sweetestheart...

...tapi dlm setiap detik n saat, Allah S.W.T  saja  nk menduga kekuatan dlm keimanan aku kuat ke x, tp ternyata ia telah membuat aku hampir2 terjerumus kedlm lembah kemusnahan sepanjang hidup aku ni...mujur r de bpe2 org yg rapat dgn aku, serta yg selalu mendampingi aku siang @ mlm (familly aku, my luv n member2...), utk terus memberikn aku kata2 semangat, dorongan n iltizam yg tinggi bg aku langsungi kehidupan aku yg kini kian mencabar serta makin payah utk harungi segala onak n duri yg terbentang didpn mata ni...

Ok, sampai disini saja entry aku yg terbaru yg ingin aku tulis, yg terlintas dlm fikiran ni dulu aku sertakn...insya Allah, lain kali aku berusaha utk meringankn jari jemari yg kini hampir kaku, malas nk menulis ni...uhhh...akan aku  update kn pe2 yg terlintas dlm hati n fikiran aku yg kini sarat dgn pelbagai ragam alam sekeliling aku ni a...

Wassalam.

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ST 12 - Terlalu

Mimpiku Dalam Koma...

         

         Detik ni, telah bermulanya sejarah hitamku kembali...aku keliru n bingung, mmg x leh nk dinafikn n sume2 ni dh diaturkn olehNya...mybe lps ni aku akn lbh brhati2 utk memilih pasangan hidup aku dimse hadapan...Walaupun aku still de rse luv @ syg, tp tu x brmkne akn kekal lme rasa tu pd orang yg x pernah kenal erti pngorbann seorg insan yg mncintainya. Kpd yg brkenaan, aku dh mncuba yg trbaik utk kita n aku brharap lps ni x de diantara kita akn ungkit ag hal ni.

" Wahai wanita, sesungguhnya kejadianmu terlalu unik,tercipta dari tulang rusuk. Adam yang bengkok menghiasi taman-taman indah lantas menjadi perhatian sang kumbang, kau umpama sekuntum bunga, harum aromamu menarik sang kumbang untuk mendekatimu. Namun, bukan semua bunga mampu menarik kumbang jika terdapat cacat cela ..."

Peterpan - Kisah Cintaku

Is there still a true love for me ...?

A true love when you shed tears and still care for her and when she does not care about you, .. you are still waiting for the faithful, when her began to love others, you can still smile and would say, I also feel happy for you...When love is not found, let yourself, let your heart back into the wild again. You may be aware that you find love and lose it, but when love dies, you don't have to die with her. 


         People who are happy are not they always get his wish, but they are still rising when they fall, how in life, you learn more about yourself and realize that there should be no regrets, Love will keep a heart, as a lasting appreciation of the choice of who lives you've done. True friends understand when you say I forgot...Wait until forever when you saying, wait a minute equipment to stay when you say leave me alone. True love is a friend which will always open the door before you tap them and before you say, " Can I get in ? "...Love is not how you forget her when they do mistakes. But how you forgive, not how you listen, but how you know, not what you see, but what you feel, not how you let go, but how do you survive...


         More painful cry from the heart wept and complained, tears out can be removed, while the tears booby carve cuts right heart is not lost. sometimes we do not care in love, when love is true, even though you ignore, love remains precious, and you should be happy your heart to love someone that you love .. Maybe there will be time where you have to stop loving a person, not because people stop loving us because we are, realizing that she would be more happy when we release it ... True love is when you really love someone, do not miss her, if she does'nt respond to you, perhaps she is skeptical and on finding, and do not believe that the release means you really love without a consideration, why not fight for love??...yeah...maybe that love you. Sometimes the most loving person is a person who does not express love with you, because you're afraid to turn and space, and if it is a time to go, you will be aware, it is love that you did not realize...

Kamu mahu aku fahami kemahuanmu semua, tapi bagaimana dengan kemahuanku?!

Kalau nak diikutkan perasaan aku yang sedang berkecamuk sekarang ni, aku dah lama tinggalkan semua2 ni...tapi semakin aku lama menahan rasa itu, semakin aku naik bosan, dan tekanan yang amat3 tinggi sekali (macam nak mati...!!!)..Sebenarnya aku dah lama malas mahu fikirkan tentang hal2 yang remeh - temeh ni, tapi apakah daya aku sebagai seorang lelaki yang punyai rasa, keinginan @ kemahuan yang senantiasa membuak2 keluar bagi memenuhi kolam nafsu-nafsi ini, aku turuti semua kemahuan yang tak kesudahan ini, walaupun susah macam manapun, aku penuhi jua rasa ini...tak ke bangang aku ni kan??!! erhmmm....jadi, kamu mahu aku fahami apa semua kemahuan korang, tapi bagaimana dengan kemahuan aku, adakah korang fahami apa yang ada dalam hati aku sekarang ini?! tolong3 lah...!!!


* P/S : I've already told u when i'm gave u a CASH...!!! : 

   C = care A = affection S = satisfaction H = happiness

...so, are u understood, don't u...???